Friday (24 October 2008) I skipped school that day cause I didn't felt like going. That day I went to the library to study instead of going to school. I went there by bus which means I have to walk about 200m from my house to the bus stop to catch a bus down town then go down the bus about 10 stops later and walk about 800m more to arrive at my destination since I still can't drive. When I arrive at the gate of the library, I met Marvin in his car fetching Zlik. What a coincidence. Inside I met even more friends, CK, SM, YJ, BT and others. Later WJ came, that the first time he came to the library after so many invitations from me. When he arrived I when to find him and we sat together. The couple sitting at our table was quite noisy but lucky it was still tolerable. I went back at about 5:30 in a hungry and tired condition that day after studying for about 5 hours and not to mention without having any lunch after walking for about 1km.

    I went for my driving training the next day at Cermerlang Driving Center. The agent who was supposed to pick me at 8:15 a.m. ran late and only turn up half an hour later. When I finally arrive there I was put to wait again for another half an hour only then I started practicing. I practiced in the training grounds for about 1 and the half hours then the agent told me to go practice on the road. The agent said my arms were too stiff to be able to control the steering well. I finished the driving training at about 1 and reached home at 1:30p.m. Later that afternoon I went to a preview of a program with my mum at Evergreen Laurel. Our memory serves us wrong at the beginning cause we went to G hotel instead. But with the blessing of the god of luck the preview haven't started when we arrive at Evergreen twenty minutes later. The preview is about the program by Adam Khoo and the preview is given by 1 of his trainers Danny. It was quite interesting and Danny shared a few concepts with us but his not that good when it comes to selling. The preview last for about 2 hours and by the end of the preview I only found out that I was able to remember forty words in two minutes time with in sequence. In the evening, I went bowling at Midlands with my family. I played horribly that night just score a total of about 120 in two games.

    Yesterday I went to the library again at about half past noon. Quite a number of friends was there already when I arrived JW, KJ, YJ and others. About 1 hour later WJ turned up. XL who was sitting in the opposite table joked with him and later I when and sat with him again. At about 3, XL and her friend SC went out for lunch and I tagged on without shame. We went to a hawker center opposite Heng Yee High School for lunch. I had much fun during our lunch and we met VH with his girlfriend there. We went back to the library later and I went home at about 5:30p.m. Besides that, I also met Zlik the yesterday and his rumour dream girl also was there.

    Today I finally got my car, even though I still haven't got my license. A black Proton Iswara which turns 1 in 31 October this year. WQR 5921……..

depress......

About 9 a.m. today, 3rd formers all around the country finished their first hurdle of their secondary life (PMR). To them is fun and games from now onwards till next year but to us 5th formers the pressure of the SPM is getting heavier by the minute. 24 more days till the 1st day of the SPM which contains 1 of the most feared paper by me-history. I can’t really memorized things so I have always failed to get good grades for this subject. I hope I can outperform during the SPM and get a better grade. 24 more days for the final charge but I still can’t find the motivation required to allow me to work hard. It struck me yesterday during Jin Gooi was teaching chemistry, I have some of the symptoms of depression. Maybe I’m too depress, maybe just a mild case…… Most of the things did not go according to plan recently (license, study……) and too many failures faced (results, gals, things that I do, ……)

Am I just being too negative?? Or I’m really too depress??

Results....

Today I took an exam on accounting-a state paper. It was quite easy i would say as i knew how to do 3 out of the 4 compulsory questions and 1 more from the elective part. I feel that this is quite a amazing feat that I had achieve cause 2 weeks ago I can't even do one of the question on the paper. After days of experimenting and exploring, I finally can almost complete a full paper. After the test, I went back to class and found out that the trial results of the accounts paper is out. So I took a look at what I've got before studying, the results of 59 were no shock to me even though i had copy my nearly all friend's answer.
Besides that, the placing of the trials are out yesterday. But since I did'nt go to school yesterday I just found out about it today. I got an average of 72. something and I'm placed at the 135th (drop about 10 placing compared to last term sobx) and 22nd in class. Overall my result are not really satisfiying. Should work harder for the preparation of SPM which is just around the corner.
After the accounts exam, I went back to class and saw some of them gambling "chor tai dee" so i joined in. In the begining I won a few hands, but as the game go on I kept on losing. Finally I end my day at school poorer by RM3.50. SWt!!!!

time flys by

32days more to the final battle of my secondary- SPM. Ready, I'm not! Confindent, Not really!! Time, not enough!!!! Arrrggh, I have tons more to prepare for my SPM but I can't summon up the motivation to go for the final sprint. I recieved a big blow to my confidence level just before I wanted to start sprinting- my trials result are wtf!!! so poor ~~~~

We brought cards to school today to play but too bad we are not in luck as 2 teachers noticed us playing and confiscated the cards. The class next door had been playing card for a few days already but they din't got caught, lol!!!! This year's fifth formers of my school don't look like fifh formers that are going to face thir SPM in 30 over days, they look more like fifth formers that have already finish thier SPM. Visiting other classes during class; eating cup noodle in class; having steamboat party in class without permission using a rice cooker; eating freshly prepared toast in class with choice of flavour; play cards and board games; smsing while in class; gambling in class; playing with games in the phone; watching porn during lessons and many more wild things. Even though some of those are minor and others are major but I believe those will become memories of us as graduates of year 2008. It will definately be a much more better memory of a secondary life than just plain studying. I really cherish my days left with this school cause here I enjoyed 1 of the best time of my life even there is some bitterness and sourness but they are the things that make my secondary life even more interesting. 5 years of memories, joy, sorrow, excitement, sadness, anger, restless, eagerness and much more emotion i had experience in my time with this school......

Angry 9th October

What did I done wrong?? Nothing has gone right this week. First the result, then got scold, some more about the car test 1...... All that I was looking foward for this week has become nightmares. The results of m trials gave me a scare when I first recieve it. It is covered with 'flying colours'. I failed a total of 2 subjects this term which is BM and sejarah.